Raise your hand if you know who William Wilberforce was/is

I sure don't. Sometimes his name shows up in articles, trivia games, or news reports and I still do not know who he is. You would think I would just google him. Nope, haven't done that either. But one article that mentioned his name talked about people who not only see the world as it is, but sees it as it could be. Among the names mentioned were Martin Luther King and Jesus. Not only do I want to be a kind of person who sees the world as it is and as it could be, but I also want to be the kind of person that does something about it. It's pretty vague, but its who I want to be. No mid-life crisis for me when I'm forty. No "integrity vs. despair" when I'm old enough to be a part of the Red Hat Society. I want to live in a way that when I look back on my life, I can be proud. Not of what I accomplished, but what I let God accomplish with my life. Gosh, I cannot wait to see what that is going to look like.

One more deep thought before I really get talking. 1 Corinthians 9:19-23 says.....
"Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. ²⁰To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. ²¹To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but am under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law. ²²To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. ²³I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings."

To the weak, Paul became weak, to win the weak. What does that mean?? Maybe William Wilberforce would know.

All right, here we go on some jennywisdom....
1. don't get a cat. patrick is cool, but he just put his butthole on my arm trying to sit on my laptop while i am typing this blog.
2. give lady gaga a chance. she's fascinating. almost all of her ridiculous and shocking behavior/outfits have some sort of message. look at it as a challenge to figure her out. it'll be like the game you can never win.
3. go to pondo. yep, i'm still saying it.
4. don't eat icecream by yourself when you are watching the superbowl. after you are done, you'll see one of the saint's cheerleaders all cute and skinny and feel bad about what you just did.
5. get a rice cooker. so you can cook rice.

i'm done. i'll just ramble if i keep going. have a great rest of your day whenever you read this. remember that God is happy with you. and if you know who william wilberforce is and he's actually someone i would be ashamed writing about, dont judge me. i really dont know who he is promise. but if he's awesome, then you are welcome.

RIP White Cheddar Mac and Cheese

So tonight, my roommate and I ate the last box of President's Choice White Cheddar Mac and Cheese. For those of you who are not aware, President's Choice White Cheddar Mac and Cheese is my absolute favorite. They stopped making it. Everywhere. I made sure. I used my "BarCode Scanner" app on my phone to try to find it and its barcode number is no longer recognized. So I had one more box and finished it off tonight. It is in moments like these that I become aware of what an anxious person I am. It took me about a half an hour to decide to eat the mac and cheese tonight because I didn't want it to be gone forever. My last bite was tragic. Here are other examples of my ridiculous (but sometimes normal) anxiety:

1. I HATE changing phones because I get attached to them. It's quite an ordeal.
2. I only use the ATMs.....bank teller anxiety.
3. From the two times Michael and I have had to say goodbye while I've been here in New Albany, I have cried. I am fine being apart from him, but the initial goodbye gives me anxiety.
4. I had two nose bleeds the first day of my internship because I was so anxious about it.
5. I'm having anxiety right now from telling you guys about my nosebleeds my first day.
6. I have to put two fingers on the car window when I drive over train tracks to avoid anxiety.

So to summarize what I've learned about myself this week, I'm an anxious person. Not anxious enough to be unable to function properly, but anxious enough to be slightly embarrassed about it.

I've had a great first week at my internship. I'm learning a lot about social work agencies, welfare, grants, and section eight housing.

I love living with Barb. Right now, we are finishing up a marathon of Jersey Shore. We haven't gotten out of our PJs all day.

I love love love going to spin class every morning at 5:30! It gives me more energy throughout the day and makes me feel good about myself. I recommend it to you. Seriously, do it.

Mom and dad came to visit this weekend for my birthday. We ate the best sushi EVER.

God is so so so very faithful. He has put me here and I could not be more grateful for it. I am growing and learning so much while having the time of my life. Its painful at times but I wouldn't trade these experiences for anything. Praise God for how faithful He is.

How wonderful, how marvelous is my Savior's love for me!

I'll leave you with this....

Things I could do without: Toilets with automatic POWER flush. Always seems to come 5 seconds to early...

I figured out my password! yessssss

So not to make excuses on why I haven't been writing any blogs, but I really could not remember my password! But don't fret everyone, I remembered it and plan to tell amazing tales of my time in New Albany, IN. Here's a short highlight list so far:

1. I officially moved in January 2nd. Michael helped us get my bunk bed up and shelves. Barb and I watched.
2. I grocery shop on my own.
3. I cooked a pot roast and orange chicken on my own. Along with roasted potatoes and vegetables. I'm still "getting to know my crockpot" (advise from my mother), so the chicken was a little overdone but still eatable.
4. I'm a member of the YMCA now! Spin classes at 5:30 AM....really not that bad and rather enjoyable.
5. Barb sings more than expected. I enjoy it more than expected.
6. I start my internship on Monday!
7. I'm applying to social work grad schools at ISU and University of Louisville (Louisville is looking more and more appealing as I look more into it)
8. I met for lunch with some of Barb's friends who have started a ministry to strip clubs. I'll start helping with that in February and couldn't be more excited about it!
9. I'm three and a half hours away from Molly.
10. I like Patrick (barb's cat).

K, that's all for now. And to those of you who give me crap about not blogging, quit it : )